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Part 2 Communicating Spirit to Spirit

Part 2 Communicating Spirit to Spirit

In Part One I shared about our being fearfully and wonderfully made, and how we may have unconsciously or deliberately rejected aspects of who we are due to misattributions regarding the origins of our various spiritual aspects or abilities. It is also my intent to show that spirit to spirit communication is based out of what and who we are, versus purely out of a belief system or practices we may engage in. This helps us understand how regardless of beliefs systems, all kinds of people are able to engage various, even similar spiritual  activities including communication.

Before we get into examples, some may be wondering where this type of thing is in the bible. There are verses in both the old testament and the new. Since Jesus came as the son of man as well as the son of God, as an example of us, not only for us, he models this for us specifically.
Only the first verse is written out. Luke 5:22, Matthew 9:4, 12:25

But Jesus, knowing their thoughts and questionings, answered them, Why do you question in your hearts? Luke 5:22 (Amplified)

Only a few of my favourite and most common personal communications by spirit are shared here in Part 2 due to length. As we will see, spirit communications can occur in a variety of ways. In Part 3 a friend shares a couple of her experiences, including texting in the spirit, and some other friends contribute too.

The first experience which I truly recognized as hearing another person versus the spirit of God left me startled and a little perplexed. I was shopping in the open produce aisles, unintentionally overhearing two ladies right behind me discussing their lives. I found myself relating and it was rather funny. I laughingly turned around to interject, the words dying on my lips in surprise. No one was there, yet the sound was clear and audible. Honestly it freaked me out a little. This is the kind of thing psychiatrists and mental health gurus generally call hallucinations–but nothing similar happened for a while.
When my son was around 6, I was doing the dishes one morning and thought to myself, I better tell him to get dressed before he comes out of his room because we have company coming. As I was thinking this, he came ripping down the hall behind me and threw over his shoulder as he passed, “I am dressed!”.
He responded vocally to something I hadn’t said aloud, but had only thought seconds before. I paused, “Did that just happen?” My 14 year old son came by so I told him what had just occurred “out of the blue”. We both wore goofy smiles, trying to comprehend it.

At this point I’d like to make an observation. Often when such things like this happen, people typically begin to wonder one or more of three basic things: 1) Am I psychic or special somehow? 2) Am I going crazy? Losing touch? 3) What door did I open so that dark spirits may affect my mind?
As a result, many who are unaware of a Father who formed and made us like himself may begin to seek extrasensory or spiritual experiences fervently, experimenting through any means available. Others may seek mental health help, or understand the experience is spiritual but recoil and try to shut it down, possibly believing that they have wandered into the “dark side” or need deliverance. Fewer think “this is normal”.
This is, in part, why I broached this subject–to create awareness that we all can do things we maybe never realized we could, or may have thought were off limits.
Some people deliberately seek and find, others stumble upon them.

The ability to hear and communicate various ways lies within our spirit. 

The ability itself is not bad or good. It’s how we’re created. However, how we choose to use and express it another matter, like many things in life.

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At a time I was seeking God for answers about direction, I knew a prophet from California who had spoken very specific things to my husband and I would be at a healing encounter weekend I also had plans to attend. I wanted to ask him why things seemed have gone the opposite way than expected since the last time we’d spoke with him. Yet, I also felt that he was “God’s man” and that it wasn’t right for me to just expect to ask and have him answer. It was an honour and respect type of thing vs a status thing–so I put a condition out- “If it’s okay for me to ask him about this, then please some how give me an indication–a sign of sorts. If it’s better I don’t ask, there will be no indicator I should.”
I went to the encounter and arrived early. Within moments after the prophet walked in, he greeted the other ladies, then looked at me, smiled largely and said, “I know you! My spirit knows you!” Surprised and grateful, I was also curious! Later, without my asking him anything he intently said, “He didn’t change His mind.”

One of the most common ways I experience spirit to spirit communication occurs in the midst of my day to day activities. I will have a person come to mind (usually clearly identifiable). Within a short time, that person will call me with a need or a question. This has been confirmed numerous times, until it’s become normal. Sometimes it’s fuzzier, like white noise, but I hear bits or phrases of conversation filtering through. I can pay attention or not. Often I’ll wonder who is involved and simply pray for the situation I “overhear”. I think many, many people experience this regularly but don’t realize the connection.

One of the most confirming experiences of the normalcy of this type of communication occurred when a prophetess and her daughter from Florida came to our church as conference speakers. At the time our church was focussing a lot on honour, so as they shared from the platform about a painful family experience, being open and honest about the fallout, I began to wonder where the story was going. I should have just been patient, but instead I said (thought out of my spirit only) to her, from my seat in the conference, “Why are you telling us this?” She kept speaking, so again I said (thought) more intently from my spirit, Why are you telling us this?” She then paused and replied vocally, “I am telling you this because…”
Honestly I don’t remember much of the redemptive purpose she gave because my attention shifted to what just transpired between us. This lady is a seasoned prophet and trustworthy pastor of a church. She heard my private inquiry in her spirit and responded vocally to it (just like my son did) Further, I didn’t pre-analyze and make a conscious decision to talk to her out of my spirit, it was natural for me to do so. It was only afterward I purposely thought on it. Often it seems like I stumble on spiritual realities; I’m surprised at times, and then I realize–we were made for this. Communing in spirit.

I have a close friend whom I share a lot of experiences with, and this is one of them. Since we experience a lot of the same things, and different things as well, we discuss and test a lot of things of spiritual nature.
Stay tuned for Part 3 where she and others share their experiences.

Is it Mental Illness, or is it Psychological Warfare?

Several years ago, I had an a very negative experience.

The church I attended was experiencing some big changes and although these were good, an enemy had an agenda too.

Difficulties began to emerge relationally, a number of people were confused, hurt and communication began to break down. People’s minds and hearts were under assault. It became clear that there was more at work than human souls.

I assumed the affects were localized to people directly involved in some of the conflicts. Therefore, My experience seemed bizzare and unrelated to praying about these issues.

I began to have mental flashes, intrusive mental pictures and short movie type scenes playing in my mind that no one would want. They seemed intermittent at first and were disturbing. Then the frequency increased and occurred both at night and in the day.

At this point of such an experience, many people begin to wonder, “Am I  going crazy? Am I losing it?” or assume that this can be the only plausible answer. Sometimes, maybe most times, it’s psychological warfare.

Because I didn’t understand what was occuring and didn’t seem to know how to completely block these images from my mind, I began to feel distressed and anxious. My present experience seemed to outweigh my spiritual training–my understanding needed upgraded, but not the way I expected.

When we encounter new things, or the unknown, we are in learning mode. We Don’t feel we have all the info needed for the present. We have past experience and victories to guide our responses, but more so, we pay close attention to our commander for more Intel and directions.

On Ground level, such experiences may feel chaotic. It’s hard to see what’s actually taking place, and Friendly Fire may occur. What we experience at ground zero may feel intense, confusing, painful.

At some point, I shared with someone that I was experiencing some unusual things and found out that many others were as well. In this situation, trying to figure out what spirit is creating the trouble is often typical protocol for spiritual warfare.

Many, if not most of us, have been taught in both the natural world and the spiritual, we need to trace the source of the enemy attack in order to be free, to find out how the enemy found a door or legal right. This typical response is so opposite of what Holy Spirit began to teach me.

Often we are taught things that sound spiritual but aren’t necessary to our freedom and may even cause us to feel more bound up. When we honestly desire truth, He will lead us into it.

Eventually the trouble all stopped, and in the aftermath I could see so clearly what I couldn’t in the midst of the experience. Because it had seemed so real, I was afraid that somehow I might be at fault for what I was experiencing, or that I might be losing the ground I had previously gained-even though my whole heart was resisting and I just wanted it to end.

I’ve learned so much since that experience about a new kind of weapon. A type of “warfare” that consists of a state of Rest.

Sometimes people describe contending for something and yet as I listen to them it sounds more like they are praying from a place of fear, or trying to shadow box (which is what I’d been experiencing with those mental flashes).
True contending comes from a place of standing firm in confidence, knowing that we have the upper hand in authority and power, convinced that we are already triumphant.

As I thought about that past experience, I found myself wishing that someone could have identified the real issue and told me:

The fact is you Are Free, and no attempt to affect you changes that. Nothing has changed in reality; you are experiencing a ruse.  

All I really needed was to know that it was merely smoke and mirrors; it wasn’t me and wasn’t mine and I didn’t need to react as though it was. I could have simply rested and known I was just fine, ignoring the mind tricks. Any tactic the enemy was using was simply that-a tactic. Nothing had actually changed.

None of it was real. 

Like in the Divergent serieswhen Tris is in the water tank and seems about to drown (which felt very real to her in the moment) but suddenly she saw and knew the truth:

“This isn’t real.”

The experience was a phenomena of the mind that felt very real, like a dream might, but when she realized it was merely a psychological phenomena, she was free that instant-actually she had been free the whole time. She simply came to that awarenessTest over.

The experience I had was one of the worst types of torment I’d ever experienced. But now I know something I didn’t understand then:

If it’s not His, it’s not mine.

I am one spirit with Christ (1 Corinthians 6:17). I don’t have to shadow box a defeated enemy. I don’t need to wear myself out resisting, repeatedly declaring, binding, and trying to block the enemy from messing with my head, sparring until I’m exhausted, only to start all over again the next day or time.

Here’s a fact. Our spiritual enemies are narcissists. They love for the focus to be on them. The more you spar the more egomanic they behave. That’s why Rest is an amazing weapon. It’s function is much like the imagery in Psalm 23.


THE LORD is my Shepherd [to feed, guide, and shield me], I shall not lack.
He makes me lie down in [fresh, tender] green pastures; He leads me beside the still and restful waters.
He refreshes and restores my life (my self); He leads me in the paths of righteousness [uprightness and right standing with Him—not for my earning it, but] for His name’s sake.
Yes, though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head withoil; my [brimming] cup runs over. Surely or only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His presence] shall be my dwelling place.

I can dismiss whatever isn’t good, pure, noble or trustworthy because the Strong Man (Holy Spirit) lives in me. This house is filled. I can set my gaze on the One who loves me and gave himself for me.

Experientially we learn to live in our dominion too. When we know the truth, we experience and live the Helmet of Salvation, the mind of Christ.                                  Our mind becomes a fortress of peace when we understand the truth.

We don’t have to feel vulnerable,  we can be confident in trust, and enter His rest.

See TheologyMom for another testimony.